"Obviously none of you fit what I was referring to. I'm speaking of those who say they hate God, the bloodthirsty, etc, etc, on top of not believing in him. If he is real, he's just a bloodthirsty, etc, etc. My post was just to point out, if you believe if he's real his only a bloodthirsty, etc, etc, that perhaps many of those scriptures could have been apostacy that had been inserted or edited. Anyway, I did not assume all hate God, and have bad feelings, which is why I said to those "who hate God", not, to all athiests."
I see what you mean... sort of. I certainly used to qualify as someone that hated God. In my last couple of years as a Witness, when I still completely believed in God, I'll admit, I despised him with everything I had.
Did I hate him because he was bloodthirsty? Yes! I hated him for all the killing, all the unspeakably evil acts that he had supposedly committed either himself or by command. The innocent babies and children, the pregnant woman that he struck or ordered struck down. All the cruel and brutal laws. All the good, kind people I believed he would kill in the furture. It's hard not to hate a God like that!
God's acts of mercy and kindness in the Bible compared to his acts of violent judgement and punishment are few and far between. To highlight the few good things God has done and point to those as examples of God's inate goodness is a bit like pointing out that Hitler was a painter and a vegetarian. A couple of kind acts or good qualities don't negate all the numerous evil deeds committed.
As for your asking if I would have felt guilty at having misjudged God at the time I was still thinking this, no I wouldn't. Claiming that the scriptures detailing God's bloodthirsty military campaigns and his slaughter of numerous humans are just human written apostasy means that you are throwing the validity of the entire Bible into question.
What parts of the Bible do you believe were inspired then? Just the happy smiley parts where no one gets killed or threatened? How do you prove that?
But even granting you such unfounded conjecture (that the horrible bits of the Bible are written by man and the good parts by God) I still don't know why should have felt guilty about hating God. I had only the evidence of the supposedly God-inspired Bible as my source of information. If God had allowed such severe human tampering of the only book he's ever written; his supposedly holy and crucial instruction manual for all man-kind, humans' only link to him, then God is still responsible for the fact that I and many other people came to the conclusion we did. He couldn't realistically expect me or anyone else to think he were wonderful and lovely contrary to what is written about him in his 'divine word'.
If short, if God existed and cared about his public image and what people thought of him, none of that stuff would be in the Bible. He wouldn't have allowed it, or would have at the very least provided evidence that it wasn't true. And if he meant it as a test... well, he's cruel on an entirely new level then.
Of course, that would have been the thinking of my Theist mind. As an Atheist, I can't hate what doesn't exist. The fictional character of the God Yahweh as written by men still turns my stomach, but for different reasons now.