I make no judgments against those in at all.
I just think it would be impossible for ME to do what they are doing at this point in time.
I didn't mean to imply that you were...sorry if it came across that way.
And I'm with you...it would be impossible for me to go back. No way, no how.
I have a friend who is still somewhat active. He's trying to get his wife to wise up but her family is several generations of dubs and he is in deep. He can't just walk away... not yet. I talk to him once in a while and he provides local scoops and scandals but I after I talk to him I ponder on just how he is able to go to the KH, go in service, pretend to be something he isn't. It's not like he's a government spy, he's trapped in a cult. I feel for him, but I understand that he has to do things his way.