I remember back in 95, when the new teaching came, I thought by myself: No surprise, the org had to do something, because the old teaching just runs out of time, ...
still, I swallowed the new explanation, I also recall, how I tried to twist my brain in order to accept this contemporary wicked generation thing....
funny, i must have had a "lucidum intervallum", a short apostate moment during my theocratic sleeping time