Joel,
I think you are an incredible person and I have a tremendous amount of respect for you. I think I understand what you are going through and why. If you have read any of my posts you will see that I am extremely open minded and try to look at issues from as many perspectives as possible. I would love for you to email me if you would like to discuss your thoughts and feelings further.
I do not want to see the theme of this particular thread diverted because there is a lot more to this whole story than most know or can be posted at this time. Once the legal threats of the watchtower are dealt with more can be revealed. The truth in this matter would make you sick. That is all I can say because the watchtower has put a legal strangle hold on this issue and no more information can be given to me or anyone else.
Please email me of you wish. Id love to talk to you about your feelings and concerns in regard to your situation.
Take care,
Dave