by compound complex 67 Replies latest social entertainment
Dear Amelia:
We all go about it differently, not that we necessarily think out and initiate a specific course to benefit us for the rest of our life. In my case, one parent was sane, the other not.
I don't have many answers, but thank you for contributing.
Hoping the best for you and yours.
Love,
CoCo
Carrie Fisher ( princess Lea Star Wars) has an HBO special . She grew up in a crazy family. She is bipolar and in treatment. She said she held a lot of resentment and anger but realized that that was sort of like drinking posion and expecting it to kill the person you hate. It won't, it will kill you.
None of this is that easy. It requires therapy usually. Some of us don't get a level playing field or get dealt a good hand of cards. A very dear friend once told me that I could let what has happened to me define my life or I could go on with my life. Life is still worth living and as long as you are alive, there is still hope.
Thank you, again, Violia, for dropping by and sharing that gem. I read similar re: Patty "Anna" Duke in her book, A Brilliant Madness.
I am grateful for what my parents gave me - a rich heritage of love and education and culture, that in spite of poverty and numerous adverse circumstances that brought them down. The remembered craziness of my childhood no longer affects me emotionally, but at it seeps through in story form.
CoCo
compound complex --- i'm going to read as soon as i build up the strength! have too many ugly feelings today for my bio-family --- narcissistic, psychopathic, bio, mother (she's not a mother, but i have to use the descriptive word). praying few times during day to love my enemy and blessings to her (them)! anyway, SO SORRY FOR YOUR PAIN and BEST TO YOU. I HATE ABUSIVE, LOSER, PARENTS and THINK PARENTS SHOULD BE WATCHED (until PROVEN GOOD -- I'M KNOW, delusional here) AND DEATHLY AFRAID TO HARM, ABUSE, IRRITATE, CHILDREN, DOGS, whatever the animals target. i have no tolerance for the animals that do this.
HEARD joyce meyers say the other day if we've not FORGIVEN them OUR PRAYERS GO UNHEARD -- well, just great. trying to forgive is all i can do.
LV101
Coco, you were too modest to include a link to the Darkened Pane thread, so I'm doing so for the benefit of newcomers.
LV101:
I'm very sorry for what you're dealing with, in particular "today."
Your current deep and troubling sentiments are not unknown to me. It was anger and pain I had to work through personally; forces from within and without refine and define what we are to become, if ever, once removed from the toxicity of our past.
If such should prove possible for us individually.
I'm hoping so for you ...
CoCo
Tirebiter:
CoCo
THANK YOU FOR YOUR KINDNESS, COMPOUND COMPLEX, appeciate! i usually don't go sideways and just deal w/their (her) toxic ways --- keep contact to a minimal (except when she needs something/emergency).
LV101
The comination of Witness culture and my father's unrestrained rage led to a terror of a childhood for my siblings and my mother, so gentle, was beaten more severely than we were. This situation was so different from the images presnted in the Kingdom Hall. The Witnesses deny the level of abuse. Sick people are attracted by religosity. Paul's letter imploring children to be subservient and the old spare the road and spoil the child were used for legitimacy as we risk our very lives. I've posted elsewhere concerning my story. His actions were over the top. The psycholgocial abuse of being told as a young, impressionable child that I was so bad no man would ever want me. His publicly declaring to the overseer's wife how bad I was but what a delight my sister was hurt me to my very core.
A large part of life is spent combatting the impact of those years. I wrote to a teen fashion mag for advice. They wrote back to a friend to get in touch with a family service bureau. I was certain Jehovah would slay me for speaking against them. Many times I called and hung up at the last minute. I crumpled the paper up and hid it in my room. My mom, the snoop, found it and called herself. The outside world saw us as subservient but I could talk about my father and the Witnesses. The lies were no longer internalized. I had an ally. I placed an order for guns an knives to level the playing field. A mom occurred where I realized my life was just as precious as his. No one else was protecting me. A rape monitoring system went into effect.
My mom was adamant that the brothers would back up and any reference to Witness teachings would only increase his feelings of grandiosity and narcissim. The agency, used to allying with religions, were shocked. My mother was right. They were lingering when I was quite young. I saw my mom being beat and perhaps even raped on a frequent basis. I prayed my heart out to Jehovah for my father to be active. My prayers were answered. I shared my dream with my mom. She was upset that I prayed for it. He would only become hugely worse which did happen. His outrageous sayins, desinged to pummel me, were said at Kingdom Hall to leaders. No one moderated his views or pointed out that I was fine. They agreed with him. I was too afriad to look at boys, I never knew a school dance, etc. They saw him pinch me severely and even kick me. Only now, later in life, do I begin to appreciate the waste, the unnecessary ruining of me.
A boyfriend and I were in Southampton on Long Island on the main tourist commercial strip. A fat woman came along, very downscale, screeching berating things at a two or three year old. Everyone, perhaps at least 100 people, cease their activity and stopped. We all wanted to be witnesses to her hitting the child. No cell phones existed. I superconcentrated to get the detials correct.
He was over the top. What Christian watches the torture of Christians and looks the other way.
so sorry for ALL that have suffered at the hands of the family arrangement. i have to skip 90% of info on your posts and take in very small portions. i think children should be taken away to schools and creative learning centers (they'd have to be monitored/protected in this environ also since people are evil/crazy) and allowed to return home on holidays or when parents have cameras being observed/watched -- big brother, whatever it's called, i don't really care but this freedom and license to abuse makes me sick!!! i think children should be protected and i don't care what it costs the taxpayers or the people to be prolific. it is criminal and most children make up excuses about their parents being off mentally and NOT JUST PLAIN EVIL so they can don't have to face reality and pain. the majority of these animals (parents) DO NOT HAVE BIOLOGICAL BRAIN DISORDERS --- they're just EVIL. sure, many themselves have been abused and then they have their own children --- their own punching bag. people have free will (it's not always a hand-me-down legacy) and many victims of abuse are loving, giving parents to their children. it's inexcusable horror --- just like the watchtower!
LV101
