I am a former MS and have been active and inactive since I stepped down about 20 years ago. I am currently inactive. I may attend a meeting or two a month, sometimes none.
I have no feelings of animosity towards the Organization, or anyone in it. This is an organization whose members are human beings, and it shows.
The key to having a good life having been associated with this organization is to drop all resentment of all past and present associates. It is also advisable to drop resentment you may have against your parents, siblings, workmates, even the waiter at your favorite eating establishment.
In other words, resentment will kill you from the inside-out.
You see, what you hate, is what you will become.
Anyway, that is all for now.
Night Owl