I bid you welcome, In!
What you said about being a nerd who never connected with other witness kids really resonates with me. JW's claim to be loving and accepting of all but that simply isn't true. The are just as class conscious and stuck up as anyone, if not even more so. Growing up a JW definitely makes it harder to trust people for sure.
It pains me to hear about how screwed up you family life has been. Perhaps I'm lucky in that regard.
Please stick around and don't just lurk, participate! The board has been a little bit slow as of late.
Regards,
V665