I could never go back because I know it's not true and they now know that I know it's not true. So sitting in a meeting listening to crap, will be extremely nauseating. Meeting people, who I know, know its crap, but still go is nauseating and the pain of watching children being lied to makes me very angry.
Why Would YOU Never Go Back To The Witnesses?
by minimus 61 Replies latest jw friends
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Aussie Oz
I doubt i could ever go back, and if i did it would be purely to save children and be a spy.
That said, i could never really go back. What has been seen cannot be unseen.
Besides, they would never have me back because i would never change to be acceptable.
As for some back story... i left to be a normal, worldly person. My faith and belief that i mattered to God was gone. I loathed field service, could no longer stomach what i came to see as a futile preaching work. The day i 'left', that is, stopped attending meetings and stood down as a M/S, i knew it was over. When i left my wife shortly thereafter and scarcely saw a JW again, when i felt my new freedom, i knew i would never return... and that was 11 years before i learnt that it was all lies and deception.
Going back would mean a return to belief that god cares about me as an individual, that all the lies are infact truths. It simply cannot be done.
oz