My plan to out myself - comments, advice?

by redredrose 40 Replies latest members private

  • saltyoldlady
    saltyoldlady

    Yes Redredrose - I have been through your thought process though I didn't hanndle it the same way as you are planning. I chose to tell each friend privately rather than in a group situation - a group of course saves time and prevents someone from getting to another with the "gossip" before you advise them. I didn't have as large a group to tell as you do so that facilitated my one on one method obviously. What I can warn you of, though you no doubt realize it already, is it will not be just accepted and put to bed - there will be no dignified way of handling the decision in a group meeting - you will be one and they will be united against you - when they have the company of each other it bolsters their opposition tendencies. It was difficult enough doing this on a one by one basis. And the ones I chose to talk to directly were all very good friends who were predisposed to side with me because of long standing friendships. And yet none of them - not even one could find the courage to accept my decision. One did come by and apologize for his stance just recently - over a year later - and you too may find that experience. People do rethink things after time passes and they realize they really do miss your association.

    But I had already turned in my letter requesting DA - in fact I did it via email - such a great invention. So when I told them it was already an accomplished fact - that should have helped to keep them from trying to argue with me or persuade me not to take the action I did - but even so many still tried. The process of trying to explain myself was very weakening - I knew exactly how they were perceiving my action and what they were thinking because I had been on the other side of the fence myself. That didn't help a bit to ease the transition. But after going thru this workout several times - it was like a practice session I got to repeat over and over - when the brothers finally came to my home to meet face to face with me the meeting with them went very smoothly and with relative ease. Had I not rehearsed the reasons and thoughts behind my actions so many times with those I knew to be favorably disposed to me as a human being it could have been very traumatic.

    Don't expect this to be easy. I will be praying for you that His Holy Spirit help you through it. In truth by DA'ing myself I was disfellowshipping them and that of course is "offensive." What I wanted to get across was that this was not what I wanted to accomplish at all - that I would always be available to talk with them, and that I would still consider them my friends. It really hurt to discover no one could just accept that. I didn't expect them to embrace it but I did think maybe some would "understand." While they mentally understood my stand for TRUTH they still could not accept the action in their hearts. So unless you are ready to resign yourself to not being understood and to walk on, wait until your decision is that clear for you. In time it will become so if your reasons are good ones.

    I too was careful never to try and dissuade anyone else from being part of the WTS organization - I considered it simply my own choice and allow others the freedom of their own choosing. My actions by posting on this board are probably my first efforts at trying to represent my views in a public fashion - done this way they are free to reject or accept of their own free will. They come here of their own free will and they subject themselves to the material - I am not pushing it upon them. I like this method truthfully very much.

    But one method of handling this was described by Don Cameron in his excellent book "Captives of a Concept" - He printed off letters for everyone he wanted to know and posted them off so everyone would be getting the info at the same time. And one advantage of that method is it puts it all down on paper - something they can read and get angry about upon first hearing it but can go back to later and read more calmly and rationally. The friend who recently came to apologize admitted he was "pissed off" when I first told him - though I did not perceive it - we were only on a phone conversation so I had less clues to pick up. I know he cut the conversation very short and just said he wished I hadn't done that. And then explained he had to hang up because of where he was at the time. And that was the end of a long and beautiful friendship just like that. Until last Saturday evening and even so I am not sure but his visit this time might only be once - he simply feels I have made a mistake and was hoping to persuade me to come back actually. His concluding comments in our goodbye this time were "You are stubborn."

    However in sending a letter you avoid the questions and having to reveal anymore than what you are willing to do. It is not quite as friendly a method as we would like but probably less traumatic and less beset with traps for quick words or the possibility of experiencing harsh words hurled your way. Staying calm is super important through all these encounters and that is not always easy. Feelings run high at a time like this. Wishing you all the best for your future decisions, Salty.

  • JW GoneBad
    JW GoneBad

    Palmtree67 says: 'Perhaps it's best not to say too much and get the "apostate" label put on you.'

    From personal experience I think this is good advice.

    Your feelings are very much like Jer 20:9 : 'And in my heart it proved to be like a burning fire shut up in my bones; and I got tired of holding in, and I was unable to endure it.'

    If you are having difficulty enduring it and keeping it inside, be very selective in what you say and how you say it.

    Wish you well.

  • JW GoneBad
    JW GoneBad

    Sorry for the small print!

  • snakeface
    snakeface

    "Anything you say can be used against you..."

  • Nickolas
    Nickolas

    "Anything you say can be used against you..." and everything you say on the internet, including here, is public domain forever. Be circumspect.

  • djeggnog
    djeggnog

    @redredrose:

    [D]ue to familial circumstances I felt able to make the decision to break free from this religion.

    I read your post with interest.

    I became intrigued by your saying that you have decided to leave Jehovah's organization "due to familial circumstances," suggesting that this decision of yours was triggered by an event of some sort. I don't ask what that event was -- your reasons are your own -- but I was thinking about the emotional toll that may result from the execution of this decision. You wrote:

    I don't want to be drawn into an argument that would leave me wide open for charges of [apostasy].... Our very few friends do know but I don't want to give them away.

    Apostasy is when someone -- not just one of Jehovah's Witnesses, but anyone that has ever studied with Jehovah's Witnesses -- speaks to someone else about any Bible doctrine that they either know, or have reason to know, to be contrary to what the Bible teaches and teaches others to this effect. For example, I believe you know as one of Jehovah's Witnesses that we reject the trinity doctrine that might be said to be one of mainstream Christianity's primary doctrines about the Christ; most of the folks in Christendom believe the Lord Jesus Christ to be God the Son, one of three "Persons" of an unknowable triune God. Just skip the next two paragraphs if you are already familiar with the Comma Johanneum controversy, @redredrose, because I mention it here to make a point about what would constitute apostasy, and not to bore you with information that you already possess.

    You may or may not have heard of controversy regarding the Comma Johanneum, which refers to the gloss at 1 John 5:7 in the received text (Textus Receptus) that is used in the Authorized King James Version of the Bible (I won't quote it here), but the defense made by proponents of its inclusion in the KJV is essentially that its removal from the KJV threatens to undermine the biblical basis of the doctrine itself. In 1690, Sir Isaac Newton, wrote a dissertation that rejected Comma Johanneum as a fraud in the treatise entitled, "An Historical Account of Two Notable Corruptions of Scripture," which was first published in 1754, in which he explains how the Comma crept into the Latin Vulgate as a marginal note to 1 John 5:7, only to later be included directly in the text.

    On page 88 of his treatise, he wrote: "If the ancient churches in debating and deciding the greatest mysteries of religion, knew nothing of these two texts [here referring to both 1 John 5:7 and 1 Timothy 3:16], I understand not, why we should be so fond of them now [that] the debates are over." It is important to keep in mind that Newton had no theological cross to bear, for he wasn't one of Jehovah's Witnesses.

    Knowing the truth about Comma Johanneum, that is to say, knowing that the words added to the verse at 1 John 5:7 in the KJV are spurious, were you to use this text in order to prove, as might anyone associated with any of the mainstream Christian churches today, that Jesus is part of a trinity, knowing as you do that this notion is bogus, that God is not triune, that Jesus is not "God the Son," not one of three "Persons" of God, but the Son of God, then you would thereby be guilty of apostasy. So when you wrote --

    I don't want to be drawn into an argument that would leave me wide open for charges of [apostasy]....

    -- unless you were to believe this doctrine to be true and teach others to this effect, you would not be guilty of apostasy. It is not uncommon that from time to time doubts will come into one's mind that we cannot resolve on our own, but if we do not soon find someone that can help us to resolve these doubts, cynicism if often the result, and so once we begin to suspect there to be something sinister, even deceptive, about the things that we are being taught, very often we might find ourselves sneering at those teachings and at those attempting to beguile us, fool us. Or, we might begin to feel sorry for those trying to teach us things that we no longer believe to be true because we realize that, while they may be sincere, they are sincerely wrong.

    There are those that refuse to get baptized until it has been proven to them that the archangel Michael is the Lord Jesus Christ. They regularly attend all of the meetings, and engage in many of the same activities in which Jehovah's Witnesses engage, but they have yet to enter God's spiritual house, His spiritual tabernacle, because they have yet to be issued a white robe, the one that those symbolizing the dedication to God through water baptism are issued. God doesn't permit just anyone to enter his temple where His servants are rendering sacred service day and night; they must be wearing this robe.

    By all accounts, they lead good Christian lives, their children are well-mannered little people and they love Jehovah. But the "Michael" thing is a problem for them, and they will withdraw from discussions where the "Michael" thing is mentioned. They don't begrudge their spiritual "brothers" and "sisters" -- yes they view them as such and their families are all viewed affectionately as such -- for believing this, but that pass on commenting when they are asked to make a comment. The elders know why; we all know why they do this. They are not sure, but they do not want to be accused by anyone of corrupting anyone else's faith to this effect, which is a commendable position, and we believe God and Jesus both look favorably upon someone that needs to 'see the print of the nails in Jesus' hands and needs to stick their hand into Jesus' side.' (John 20:25)

    Why, later on, Jesus appeared to Thomas, understanding perfectly that Thomas had doubts in his heart, doubting the fact that Jesus had been resurrected, and while some elders might in such a situation show themselves to be all upset over Thomas' attending meetings with the rest of the apostles that had no such doubts at all, breathing fire wanting to flex some theocratic muscle and kick Thomas out to the proverbial curb, as some might say, Jesus was a kindly elder, was he not? Jesus told Thomas to 'put his finger right into his hands where the nails had been, to inspect his hands, to look at them, to take his hand and see how far he could stick it into his side where one of the Roman soldiers had pierced him.' (John 20:27)

    But you know what? Jesus gave Thomas opportunity to become fully convinced that Jesus was alive again, that Jesus had, in fact, been resurrected, just as Jesus had said he would be, just as the apostles had told Thomas that Jesus had been, so that Thomas would "stop being unbelieving but become believing." We don't know how long Thomas' investigation took, but we do know that Thomas doubted the report of Jesus' resurrection for at least eight days (John 20:26), and we also know that Thomas was given the time he needed to overcome them.

    Jesus knew that there would be those whose interest would be pricked upon their hearing the good news about his resurrection and his Messiahship in the kingdom of God, and likewise Jesus knew that the interest of many would be picked upon their hearing the good news about the established heavenly kingdom of God, but that some would doubt.

    You think the elders today are out to flex theocratic muscle and I say to you that you are right; some of them will misuse and have misused their authority to inflict injury upon the flock, those having doubts, those needing time to fully embrace the beliefs of Jehovah's Witnesses. Not months, but some have needed years to become convinced, not that Jesus was resurrected back on Nisan 16, 33 AD, because they are "fully convinced" of this, but of other things the Bible teaches or touches upon that are "hard to understand." (2 Peter 3:16)

    Thomas' doubts as to this one thing was resolved in about a week, but he may have had other doubts he needed to overcome three months later. But the Bible tells us about what was a major hurdle for Thomas, and it was addressed. What might be your major hurdle(s)? You can go to one of your elders and tell him in confidence what you're feeling or doubting, or, if you believe yourself to be in one of those congregations with one or more elders that seem to enjoy flexing theocratic muscle against the flock of God, you can discreetly visit another congregation and seek out one of those elders in it, let them know you're baptized and why discretion is necessary, telling one of them your situation, your doubts, the things that give you pause about what Jehovah's Witnesses teach, and perhaps your fear of being charged with apostasy will not be realized at all. And perhaps, in time you, too, will be "happy ... and yet believe" that you have indeed found the truth. (John 20:29)

    @saltyoldlady:

    But I had already turned in my letter requesting DA - in fact I did it via email - such a great invention.

    I want you to know that I did read your post.

    Of course, we all have reasons for the things we do, and I'm sure you had your reasons and were ok with your decision to formally disassociate yourself from us, which was what you decided to you. I would advise @redredrose to take you advice, and I have my reasons for giving her advice that is contrary to what you gave.

    Unfortunately, we are all imperfect, the elders are very imperfect, and when we become cynical of these glorious ones based upon our focusing on their many faults or the stories you may have come to hear about their life before they became Jehovah's Witnesses, you could easily find yourself comparing your life with theirs and begin conducting yourself in such a way as to convey a superior attitude toward these men, and that's what they are, men. But they were all appointed by holy spirit and these imperfect men -- these elders -- were appointed to the end that they might serve for your joy, lest they be removed for serving some other end that is not theocratic in nature.

    I would rather @redredrose PM me, than for her to send any emails or letters, or take any step that could lead to her motives in wanting to let others know that she had doubts being wrongly construed. Although I do not believe your intentions were bad in giving her such advice -- and I mean this -- what you advised her here is, in my opinion, neither good advice nor loving advice, and I wish her to reject your advice for I find it to be both bad and unloving.

    @djeggnog

  • cantleave
    cantleave

    djeggbog writing crap again.

  • Nickolas
    Nickolas

    Or, we might begin to feel sorry for those trying to teach us things that we no longer believe to be true because we realize that, while they may be sincere, they are sincerely wrong.

    It's you I feel sorry for. Truly.

  • redredrose
    redredrose

    salty, thanks for sharing your experience, you get it. I don't plan on doing the group thing, one relative will be face to face the others I was going to call but now because of your post I'm considering a letter.

    Perhaps I've been somewhat indiscreet here, will try to be more careful. You other guys are right, I don't want to say too much to them and for me telling the whole truth is my first instinct so I must be doubly careful.

    Dj maybe I wasn't clear or maybe you misunderstood but I have no doubts! The org is a sham and I've wasted many years and time and money and what did I get for it? The feeling that I was never doing enough, never good enough, never spiritual enough to matter. My family has been abused by several bodies of elders, made to feel like troublemakers because we were not afraid to speak up.

    I have no doubt many Witnesses are sincere and try to do what is right and I have compassion for them. Because really : shit flows downhill. The rot starts at the top, and I too used to be a person who tried to do what the Society said, so how could I not have compassion for them.

    However, I am conscious now and have no intention of going back to sleep. I am ready to live my 'real life' and that is why I must let loved ones know that I am not coming back.

    Oh, and did I mention I have no doubts?

  • Black Sheep
    Black Sheep

    If you want to out yourself without losing your family you only have one option. You have to wait for them to leave first.

    Don't kid yourself that your family is different and won't turn into Mr. Hyde when you out yourself. Unless they are closet apostates themselves, they will behave badly.

    "Do you really want to know?"

    If this doesn't work and they say yes, have a pre-prepared question. "I have a problem that you might be able to help me with!" Maybe even get them to agree to help you with it. Then ask a single question. Make it a good one. Not doctrine/Trinity/soul/etc.. It must undermine selection as God's channel. They should have any research material that they need on their own bookshelf or WTCD. Try to ask it in such a way that they feel they really should have an answer for it. Don't make them feel that they have to answer it right now, you will be happy if they go away and research it.

    Now here is the hard part .... now .... and in the future .... do not get sucked in to any change of subject by any of the myriad of diversion tactics they have been practicing for decades. Call their bluff on any form of dishonesty, double standards or psychological warfare they use. Act offended by attempts to fool you.

    Remember at all times .... you want to be a believer, but this question is stumbling you and you are asking for their help to answer the question, not for methods of pretending that the question doesn't exist. The question does exist and that is what is stumbling you, not your inability to turn your brain off and just believe coz the church hierarchy says so, just like the Catholics do .

    Until you have a very good plan that takes into account all of the mind control they are fed from the platform, the status quo is good. Don't do anything to blow it. You cant talk to a JWs backside.

    Cheers

    Chris

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