I absolutely agree with Auzzie Oz and streets76.
I've said it before: that trying to go to meetings while not believing in it anymore is a serious risk to your sanity and emotional wellbeing. Cognizant dissonance is a very real phenomenon and it could quite literally drive you crazy.
I've also said many times here that (with rare exceptions) there are no genuine friends on the inside. The so-called "Christian love" in a JW congo is as phony as a three dollar bill. If you no longer count yourself as a JW, they wil no longer be your friends. It's that simple. That's just the deal.
V665