Now I realize it doesn't really matter what you think you SHOULD DO if it isn't in your nature to actually DO it.
That is because you are a coward.
I'm not sure what being a "coward" is in a situation such as I was in.
Refusing to be inducted into the Military, facing the draft board, being questioned by the F.B.I. and standing before a District Judge and then spending
time in County Jail and entering Federal Prison took a certain amount of personal fortitude, wouldn't you say? It wasn't heroic, certainly. I did what I did at the time because I believed I was doing the "right" thing (as I understood "right").
The District Judge had told me in no uncertain terms: "At anytime if you wish to be released from prison you can send me word and I will have you out that same day." All I had to do was agree to serving ALTERNATE SERVICE by going to Terrell State Hospital for two years in lieu of Military Service.
So, to my thinking, a coward would have taken that as an "out".
As far as physically harming the guy who grabbed me it was a moment of IF/THEN which I did not fully understand, but, which was singularly clear.
Whatever Violent thing I must do was not the FIRST THING I should do.
Had he not relented, I may well have been forced into violent resistence.
As it was, although traumatic, it turned out allright.
I'm not sure how cowardice enters into it, frankly.