I'm an active Jehovah's Witness. I've obviously lost my faith, that's why I don't feel bad posting here anymore. I'd probably be disfellowshipped as a division causing, teaching, apostate, faster than you can say "Ma′her-shal′al-hash-baz" (Isaiah 8:1), should it be found out that I was posting here and did not repent of the things I've said and stop participating in this forum. Offline, I keep my thoughts to myself and stick to the "official teachings/understandings" in service or with my brothers and sisters.
@djeggnog, @StandFirm, @ 20571pnt428571, et al (Maze, I'm really not sure if you are a witness):
The Kingdom Ministry articles over the past 10 years make it obvious to me that the Governing Body does not want Jehovah's Witness cowboys doing research outside Watchtower Society Publications, making their own websites, engaging in debates; certainly not without their approval. At least that is how I understand it and how the brothers and sisters that have made comments about such matters understand it
Yet, you seem to be 100% believing Jehovah's Witnesses, confidence in the guidance and direction of the Organization and it's Governing Body, yet don't see a conflict with posting here or doing research outside of Watchtower Publications.
I'm not saying this to criticise, rather, I think that it is necessary for the long term growth of Jehovah's Witnesses to directly address criticisms that can be easly found online. But instead the overall direction lately, at least from my impression, is to keep people away from apostate literature, and not address the objections.
There has been NOTHING in print regarding 587 BCE for over 22 years (and the refutation was weak at best: "But if a Bible student uses those dates when calculating the fulfillment of prophecy, he will simply be confused." w89 3/15 pg.21 par.16). There has never been any refutation regarding the Watchtower's past NGO UN status (aside from the BOE letter which would require a witness to admit to an elder that they've been looking at or listening to apostate material to see it), no refutation of the Malawi/Mexico allegations made in Crisis of Conscience, etc. Refutations of these issues, which I'm sure have "saved" at least some Jehovah's Witnesses faith, have been in the form of the JW cowboys who set up their own websites or participate in online discussions as you do here.
This is compounded by the fact that those have doubts tend to hide it at first. For me it was out of fear. I wanted to make sure that my worship and faith was not misguided, but I did not want to be labelled spiritually weak by going to the Elders to ask for help with these doubts. Was that stupid reasoning? Pride? Perhaps... but with all the printed warnings against looking at "apostate" information, I felt scared to discuss any of the issues I discovered with any of the Elders for fear of being charged with being disobedient to the Faithful slave. I have had Governing Body members come to give talks in my area, and had questions I wanted to ask them (mainly in regards to allegations made by apostates, and some of our interpretations of the Bible), but was afraid to for fear of being investigated after the fact.
Did you go to the elders with any doubts or questions you may have had? Did you right to the Society? What was the response?
By being a Spiritual Cowboy (ie posting here) do you think you're simply ahead of the game (ie. running ahead of the organization)? Immune to apostate reasoning (ie. think that your spiritually will not be affected by feeding, or at least dabbling with, the table of demons)? The publications equate looking at apostate information as not obeying Jehovah and not opposing the Devil. Why doesn't that bother you? I was deathly scared to join up and post here because I felt I was doing something wrong at first