For a long time we were grieving the thought of losing all our friends… but now we realize that we can’t stand being around witnesses and their pompous, mind-numbingly ignorant conversation anymore. After a night of listening to couples talking about wanting to go to the SKE school, their take on blood transfusions and their disturbing thoughts on the Royal Commission we wanted to shoot ourselves. It’s gratifying to realize we have moved on from them, not the other way around.
I sure do understand that. My wife and I, too, realize that we can't stand being around JWs. The JW culture is so goody-goody and self-righteous and bragging and condescending. Just this morn, I looked at some JW stuff on instagram (because a thread on this site mentioned it) and it made me sick. JWs are like "Look at us. We are so hip and cool and loving and spiritual."
I can’t stand to think about the amount of drivel, crap and nonsense that must have fallen out of my mouth over all the years I was a witness! It’s painful to listen to… and embarrassing to realize I was once in that zombie like state. No more though.
Same with me. I mentioned this about a year ago on this site, but I'm going to mention it again. Shortly before I became a JW, I saw the James Farentino movie Dead and Buried (1981). I don't remember the exact story, but I do remember that Farentino played a good sheriff in a town in which many (most? all?) inhabitants' minds were taken over by aliens (or something like that). Anyway, throughout the whole movie, the tendency is to identify with the sheriff and wish him success as his motives are good.
However, at the end of the movie, subtle hints are dropped indicating that the sheriff himself has been one of them (was taken over) all along and he didn't know it. You can feel the horror as he begins to recognize it.
When I awoke to TTATT, I remembered that movie and thought it kind of captured my feelings. I was thinking "I've been one of them all along and didn't recognize the true nature of the situation?!"
It looks so different now that I'm looking at it from the outside. Some stuff disgusted me all along, but I just put up with it. Now, though, I see the big picture.