I wish to remain anonymous
ANGUS
by minimus 81 Replies latest jw friends
OK Mr james_woods, maybe you shouldn't read my posts anymore. Seems enigmatic is catchy.
But how will I ever be able to understand you if I don't continue reading them?
The family members I worried about so much have died. I had no real friends so I don't care. My family did find out b/c of certain things I did - attend rock concerts, college, and a Xmas tree. They never visited around Xmas. My sister lagged behind in taking it down. My aunt visited an md across the street. She called to use the bathroom. My sister called me to find out what to do. I told her to take a sheet and dump the tree out of the window. Look for people first. I wanted the tree gone, even if favorite and pricey ornaments were lost forever. She did not. i cried so hard.
To my utter shock, the family pretended there was no tree. They would even ask questions about my college courses. Their attempt to relate my life to something similar to their JW KH life amazed me. I cried with relief. I never volunteered any worldly thing, though. Tried to hide it desperately. I recall the fear of total rejection. So sad.