Choices
By my nature I am not a negative person. I have always been one to look at the bright side of a bad situation or express optimism for the future. Throughout my whole life I have shown love for what is right and hated people and organizations who are hypocrites. I have always tried to do what I think is right and now I have the responsibility of teaching my kids to do the same.
Over the past two years I have become critical and negative towards an organization that professes to be perfect and directed by God. I feel that my anger is directed not at the people within the organization but at the actual doctrines,structure and policies of the organization. The same organization that taught me to speak out against unrighteousness and hypocrisy has by its own policies, directives, and threats, forced me to become a concealer of its own unrighteousness and hypocrisy. The ironic part of the situation is that even though I am aware of the corruption and believe that the organization is not directed by God, I must pretend and outwardly profess that it is clean, pure, true and spirit directed.
Choice 1 -
Remain a Witness and ignore what I know about the Society. For the rest of my life pretend to believe that God speaks to the Governing Body and that I agree with all of the organizations teachings even as they change. Even though I feel strongly that the organization is corrupt and should be destroyed, ignore this and teach my children that the corrupted organization is actually the only means to salvation for mankind. Pretend to believe that 1914 is correct, and teach my kids that the only way to life is to attach ourselves loyally to the Governing Body. Go out in the ministry regularly and try to convince people to come into an organization that I feel is not directed by God. Even though this is hypocritical, this is what is necessary to keep appearances up.
By being hypocritical, ignoring logic and reason I will be able to keep my reputation, my friends and my family. I will have peace of sorts within my household. The key is to throw out my personal integrity, and disconnect my brain.
Choice 2-
Leave Quietly. Phase out my activity, without any explanation to the elders. When asked; refuse to go into specifics. Refuse to teach wrong doctrine to my children. Teach them to stand up for what is right despite the consequences. Lose my friends and family because I no longer support the corrupted organization. Have the ones that I love obediently shun me at the orders from the organization. Have deep pain inside at this loss. Gain a measure of joy because of holding to my personal integrity.
If my wife stays with the organization, become prepared for my kids to be taught by the organization that I don’t love Jehovah and will die at Armageddon. Look at my children’s heart break as they are told that their friends can’t come over anymore because their daddy doesn’t love Jehovah.
Knowing the truth about the Watchtower Society has put me in the uncomfortable position of either losing my friends and family or losing my integrity. To keep quiet about what I know is wrong within the organization is to silence my mind and heart, and pretend to believe something that I feel is fundamentally wrong.
So, what choice is better? Should I live my life as a hypocritical, tortured pretender, or stand up for what is right and lose my reputation, friends and family?
These are the tough choices that many of us faders are having to make. No matter what your situation is in regards to this religion, it sucks. If you are active, you are mislead and duped. If you are fading you are tortured. If you have been disfellowshipped you are no doubt lonely and hurt and angry. This religion brings you nothing but pain and heartache.
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