There will be ups and downs, Notready.
Those of you that think Im compromising and cowardly for not making an obvious stand straight away, I understand your sentiments, and I really wish I was that brave
I think you're brave for the stand you're taking. It's the course of wisdom to take your time to wait and watch. You'll have opportunities to enlighten others along the way.
it does not make me a true apostate, although loyal JWs would label me that.
An important thing to keep in mind is that WT is the apostate organization. You are not the apostate for deciding to stop following a publishing corporation. As "true apostates" WT demands authoritarian control where they deserve none. Their history of false prophecy, flip-flop teachings, and fraudulent promises proves they are a cult. You are not an apostate for calling WT the fraud that it is.