Welcome Kool Jo!
I'm an agnosto-atheist now, sort of. But I'm not a fan of labels. I think there really could be something out there, but nothing like the god that is taught in any religion. If there's no god, there's pain and suffering because that's part of life, survival of the fittest. That belief isn't altogether appealing to me, so I think there might be a god that isn't really emotional like us, and doesn't understand pain and suffering on our level.
I believe there could be an afterlife, but there really isn't anything I can do about it one way or the other. If anything, I live in such a way that if there is a god(s) watching, (s)he'll say, "Hey, let's bring Billy back."
I kinda missed the notion of having the pet lions and pandas in a global paradise. But that was all JW brochureware. After serving at Bethel, and spending too much time with other JWs, I realized that a JW run world would be a complete disaster. I'd be living an eternity under a mountain of rules, constant fear and threats, and continuous slave labor. I'd put in requisitions for that pet panda, and they would always be returned with a note, "Not yet. Very, very soon. In the meantime, work harder."
When a dub, I was terribly depressed and plastered on the obligatory fake smile. Now I'm happy. Still have a long way to go before I'll have the life I want to be living, but I'm going in the right direction.
I reserve the right to change my opinions. I do not claim to be god's channel. Anyone that claims to be god's channel is lying unless they can feed thousands of people out of a magic basket, walk on water, heal the sick, raise the dead, and answer my every question without resorting to mystical and obscure illustrations.
I don't argue with religious people unless they start it. Maybe I'm an agnosto-atheo-unitarian-universalist. Religion is 'good' if it really makes people happy and work good towards others.