Thanks friends...
@ designs, yes I partake in private with another x-jw brother
@ Botzwana, I would think that partaking " unworthily" would be partaking without believeing in Christ and comming into a personal relationship with him and his father. A person who has no regard for Christ or his father and then shows up to drink the wine would be mocking God.
I found this online and I agree with it:
“The focus is not so much on our own worthiness (who is worthy of the sacrifice of Christ?) but in observing the Lord's Supper in the proper manner.” It is possible to partake in an unworthy manner. When you examine yourself, it is not a question of whether or not you are worthy to worship God…none of us are really worthy on our own merit to come into His Presence. Rather you must make sure that the manner in which you partake is right. The manner in which you partake includes principles: rightly discerning the Lord’s Supper for what it is, the use of the proper elements, proclaiming His death, properly focusing your mind to remember Christ as He commanded, the partaking on the Scriptural day, and a self-examination to ensure your personal compliance with God’s will regarding this memorial. It has little to do with other sins you may have in your life as a Christian, though those other sins could become a stumbling block to cause you to violate one of the requirements of partaking worthily."
I hope that helps...
My opinion is it is a command and if you believe in Christ you should obey him. With my body I am a slave to sins law but with my mind to Gods law. (Romans 7:25) His sacrifice covers our sin. What does your mind and heart tell you is right in this? Pray and ask for Holy Spirit to guide you.