As an apostate, I have found it is impossible to maintain moral cleanness outside of Jehovah's organization. Having rejected spiritual light and even holy spirit itself, I am no longer capable of producing the "fruitage of the spirit". Bereft of even what Bible knowledge I once had--the better part of which was learned from the "faithful and discreet slave" class--I no longer have a "lamp to my foot and a light to my roadway". Stumbling in darkness, my future prospects are dim. Lying, fornication, and routinely, brazenly viewing violent, immoral or even pornographic entertainment have become commonplace for me. "[I] have given [myself] over to work uncleanness of every sort with greediness." (Eph. 4:17-19) What a sad state! Loyal servants of Jehovah would do well to learn from this "warning example".
--sd-7