Sounds like another angry apostate is soon to be born! Mwoo hoo ha ha ha ha ha haaaaa .
Seriously, though, your mind is coming up with these questions because you can sense something is wrong. "If you have proof, then you have to pursue it!" You're upset about this situation, and it's activating the doubts that were clearly already present. This is a dangerous time for you. Especially if you like a girl. Tell ya what, why don't you read my story, and see how well it could turn out if you go down that road...
You're here and you've read these comments without totally bolting for the metaphorical door, so that must mean your mind is ready. But it's Pandora's Box, bro. There's no turning back. If you're ready, it's time to ask the mother of all questions:
Do Jehovah's Witnesses have the true religion? Is it possible that they do not?
When I got frustrated with things, one thought popped into my head. I'd noticed the Society was always warning us to avoid talking to apostates. Everything they were warning about just smacked of fear, to me. What were they so afraid if these apostates were a bunch of raving lunatics and liars? It occurred to me that I was looking for answers that the elders couldn't give me--and believe me, I did try seeking their guidance, only to find them parroting the literature at best.
Just don't...do anything crazy. Don't open that box unless you're far enough away from anyone and anything that can entangle you with this organization. Especially that one sister in the congregation you have a thing for.
Or, on the other hand, the Watchtower might say something like, "humility and loyal obedience will help you to cherish your place in Jehovah's organization. Have you lost privileges in the congregation? Do not despair. Hard work, in harmony with fervent prayer to Jehovah, will help you to restore your spiritual strength and press on to maturity once more. Rest assured that he will not forget the hard work you have done in behalf of his name."
Your call...
--sd-7