This is a good subject. I have to really fight being angry at the organization but I did benefit in some ways from them.
I had always read the Bible, but hadn't ever researched a subject at a time in it like I did with the Trinity when I first began studying.
I learned a lot about different bibles, King James and so forth and learned to appreciate the different versions and their interpetations.
I, like Wendy/Mommy really liked the feeling at the assemblies, I really did feel love for all present.
As has been mentioned, it felt good to be so certain of everything. Being born a man, being raised in the South, being in the Corps, I was already misled into a good bit of false pride, so I am not sure that thinking I was one of a small group who REALLY knew the TRUTH was that good for me, but I enjoyed the feeling. Let me add that having been married for a long time to the sweetest woman in the world, I now realize that men really are made from dirt and that women are a little smarter and a lot sweeter.
I think the thing I liked best was teaching others about what I considered the truth. It was nice to think I could save lives. It was also nice to have it all wrapped up so tidy and nice and know that you yanking brands out of the fire just before the door of the Ark closed. Not being willing to teach 1914 and the chronology was the reason I first stopped going in service.
Like Waiting, I came in after marriage, and I can find nothing positive to say about the agony I put my wife through compromising and refusing to compromise on so many areas. I guess the only good that came out of it is we both appreciate how smooth things are without the religious arguments. If I had only known then what I know now, I would still have a real relationship with my daughter. It is a wonder my wife doesn't hate me. Of course I was urged NOT to compromise at all by some at the Hall. Hmmm. I should erase this but won't. I did say something good. Having crossed the desert I appreciate water.
I keep saying more that winds up being negative and erasing it so I will stop here. I think a lot of us became Witnesses because we were and are idealists. I think a lot of us stopped for the same reason.