Healthworker
As others have said, I can't see any judicial committee where the accused labels the Governing Body "bloodguilty" ending in anything other than a disfellowshipping. So long as you're prepared for that, and can stay calm and keep your nerve, hopefully round 2 won't come as too much of a shock. I do hope the worst is behind you. You continue to be in my thoughts.
I look forward to reading your essay!
Stay strong.
Cedars