Violet, hurt comes with almost every aspect of life. I have been hurt and screwed over so many times it isn't funny. But, that's what I get for trying to always be a nice guy. I became a JW thinking that the hurt wouldn't be there. I was wrong.
Not to discourage you, like I said, faith is too precious to leave up to others. But, the JWs ripped me to pieces and desecrated almost every value I hold true, many that I even found supported in the Watchtower. Yes, many in the world cause a lot of pain and hurt, but that doesn't condemn the entire world. My bitterness isn't directed at the entire Jehovah's Witness's, but at the Organization that spawned the people that took advantage of me and screwed me six ways to sunday. A lot is also directed at the individuals that did it to me.
What hurts even more, today, is that becuase I choose to not remain a member of that religion, none will even talk to me, acknowledge me or anything else. But, they don't have a problem coming into my house and utilizing what I have and many things I had long before marrying a JW, as they all see fit. I also find it a bit distasteful that I am expected to leave the room, in my own house, because some elders come over to see the wife or her kids. In addition, mostly becuase of this misguided policy of shunning, my wife and I are seperating, after 8 years of marriage. Since I DA'd, they have little or nothing to do with me, but expect and demand that I work to pay the bills, feed them, all the rest, but refuse to even talk to me. The wife would, on rare occassion or if she felt like having sex.
I cannot say that all halls are like that or encourage it, but the Organization does. Funny thing is, though, since I am an auto mechanic, I am expected to be at their beck and call when they have car problems, but afterwards, I get shunned.
Sadly, I don't think you will escape being hurt by going back to the JWs. I hope that you don't, but life is life and people are people. There are a lot of good people within the JWs and many bad too. For me, I look at what the Org teaches. Theologically, I agree with much of what they teach. Doctrinally, I cannot take the controlling nature or the in house bickering over how to control coming from the elder bady.
I sincerely pray that you don't have to go through what I did with them. For you and everyone else posting here, I only wish the best, be it in or out of the Org. I truly pray that all goes well for you. If not, you are always welcome here amongst friends.
If God's Spirit is filling a Kingdom Hall, how is it that Satan can manuever the ones within that Kingdom Hall at the same time?
