I was terrified of dogs have been every since I as a little kid.
I was ridiculed, mocked, put down, made to feel like I had no faith, etc when I was out in service if I refused to go to a home with a dog becuase the dog scarred me.
The dogs always sensed my fear and they would come at me, I have been told over and over by JW's that I lacked trust in Jehovah that was why dogs bit me. I kid you not.
I have put myself in danger so many times it is unreal. There was one time where I knew this home had a mean dog and it was my door. I was in a car group of four other sisters and I begged them to just write it down for letter writing, This aggressive sister told me NO WAY it was my door and that I had better get out of the car. There was no dog in sight so it was clear to the car group that I just did not want to talk at the door. I went to the door shaking and sure enough the dog came tearing out from the back, he was a wicked mean German Shepard I ran for my life and barley made it back to the car. I was so scarred and all the sisters in the car were laughing their heads off at me telling me I looked so stupid.
I have been bit six or seven times, one bit did not break the skin but it bruised so bad that it took six months to heal. We were pioneering and I had no money to go to the doctor. My husband asked me why I allowed the dog to bit me. I just wanted to cry. It just really hurt my feelings more than anything because he did not care, it was like it was my fault.
I have been told that I was faking my fear of dogs just so I did not have to go to the door because I did not want to save peoples lives, I was trying to get out of talking, taking my fair share of the doors.
Yet I have been with other JW's who have been afraid of dogs and they get away with not going where there are dogs. I do not know why there was such a difference with me.
One time I was bit by a small dog an ankle bitter and my husband said Jehovah let it happen because the guy was so afraid we might sue he stood and listened to my husband for over an hour, my husband said if the dog had not bit me the guy would not have gotten a witness, so Jehovah allowed it to happen and it was no big deal just a small wound.
The bottom line is I had no choice but to go to doors with bad dogs, I do not know why I was forced to but I was FORCED TO. I know to most of you that makes no sense why did'nt I just say no. I did, I begged, pleaded, even cried not to make me go to the doors with bad dogs, but I was told it was my service to Jehovah to go to ALL DOORS. I have even been told that they would not move the car until I got out. Now I find it hard to believe myself but it was how I was treated in feild service.
The pain of how I was treated by my fellow JW's hurts more then any dog bite.
LITS