ravens - I used to feel the way you feel. I felt so free when I left the WBT$ and got born again. It was a wonderful feeling but at the end of the day it was just a delusion. I was happy in a dream but now I've woken up.
No. I don't want to believe that when I die that's me gone forever but at least if that's reality I'm happy to know the truth.
No. I don't want to believe that there are often no consequenses for evil people. That's the truth though. The wicked DO prosper and there's no big sky daddy will ever step in.
No. I didn't want to face the fact that if there is a god he doesn't care. I now face it as the reality it is...alone!! God has been less than useless and there IS no justice from a higher source. If there was then the earth would be sorted by now. If there was then everyone would understand exactly who god was and which religion to follow. To say he lets us make our own choices is daft. ''Worship me or I'll kill you....but I'm not telling you how!'' Nah. A real loving father isn't that weird. God reminds me more of Fritzel!
I know you're a good bloke Ravens. Follow your path. Don't be surprised if god evaporates and you end up like me.