Maybeso

by MaybeSo 29 Replies latest jw experiences

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  JeffJ

  Maybeso,

  Several people have mentioned the Matrix and as tacky as I found those movies, it really is the best analogy. There is no going back. At first it is easy to envy people who have the answer for everything when you are finding yourself with no certain answers. It does get easier as your mind becomes used to freedom and trained to look at issues from the beginning and not work backwards from the answer provided by the WT.

  I have not been in the same situation as you, I faded out of laziness and then woke up years later. I can only imagine the pain you are experiencing but I do know after lurking here for years that there are others who have been through the same experiences and we are all here to help. You have a large family here on JWN to assist you in this transition.
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  Heaven

  "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us." - Gandalf
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  Newly Enlightened

  Welcome Maybeso! We're glad you're here with us and know the 'real' truth now. I know it's difficult and there will be some rough times ahead, but like my daughter Gojira said, just take your time.

  It does get easier.

  Peace be with you on your journey.

  NE
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  sylvlef

  Hi

  As expresses by Many people here, only you know what your wife is most likely to do if you tell her what you feel.

  sometimes i feel just like you, sad and depressed because of this. Sorry there is no "right answer" for your situation...but don't give up hope,even if it is a long journey...
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  XBEHERE

  " Do I just ignore everything and live a happy blinded life? "

  This is the route I chose and I dont reccomend it. But I do understand why myself and others do it. From experience, it isnt healthy and it eventually will catch up to you. I have started to tell my wife things here and there i.e. Jeremiah books sucks which she agrees with. Also we agree in the fact that "wordly" people are nice and accetable associates. However she is still after me to study with the kids! So brainwashing runs deep. I eventually will just let it all out and it may happen sooner than later. Good luck with whatever you choose to do.
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  Captain Blithering

  Hey MAYBESO, thanks for posting this thread, saved me a whole lotta typing (in secret, on this tiny phone keypad) and I get to read all the responses as if they were to me! Aces!

  I think we're probably at the same point in our journey. Let's hope it all goes swimmingly eh?

  Cap'n Blithering
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  Billy the Ex-Bethelite

  "For now, I'm trying to play it cool and figure out my next move."

  That's the best place to start. Carefully evaluate your situation and what you want out of life. The dream of the panda petting paradise may be gone, but it was just a carrot to get you to recruit for WT. First get rid of the mental chains of the JW clergy, then you'll be better able to get rid of the physical chains of WT corporation.
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  MaybeSo

  Thank you guys, to all and each of you. No one else knows how it really is until you find out about TTATT.

  Funny thing, I have the #3 this next meeting...ugh!!!!!
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  2+2=5

  Hi Maybeso, I only just noticed this thread. Welcome.

  I have only recently learned TTATT so I know how hard it is and what a rollercoaster ride you are on. It is terrible feeling to have your foundations ripped from under you. It is like you are mourning the death of something. Everything you thought to be true just crumbling away in your hands.

  I can remember sitting in the KH last November, and thinking that I need to stop researching my religion and just get serious in 'the truth'. The familiar feel of the KH and the friends there had me feeling kinda secure or something. I resolved in my chair that night that I was going to stick with 'the truth'..... that feeling didn't last more than a day, as I simply couldn't ignore the things that I had learned.

  It is still strange for my wife and I even now, to realize TTATT and the fact we don't have all the answers. The WT offers answers, but they are not very satisfying, and prove to be false when scrutinized. On top of that they are extremely demanding of your time, and also induce fear and guilt.

  Anyway thanks for sharing. All the best with everything. Good luck on that talk #3
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  LisaRose

  Welcome, Maybeso, I think playing it cool is really good for now. I think sometimes when people find out TTATT, they want to either rush out and tell the family and/or the elders. This is a huge mistake. First figure out what you want to do about it, that takes time. Do you want to stay in for family, do you want to fade so you won't be shunned? Do you want to DA? Once you figure that out, you can proceed accordingly. It may seem overwhelming right now, this is a huge thing to deal with, so just take it easy. Read some of the books others have recommended, it will help.

  Captain Blithering, hello to you too.