Hi Emeth,
It's a little unkind to describe everybody here as having problems - you scoop up your colleagues like SFPW in comments like that, and he scoops you up in his similar posts.
There are those who see the good in the JW religion, those who see the bad, and those who see both.
You're obviously in the first camp and that serves you well.
You say you don't want to hang around a website for years, but also say you've been aware of this site for more than 5.5 years, and have recently joined to contribute your thoughts to it. Ok.
Please don't view everything as a 'challenge'. That's the way it is in the congregation - to drift from the official line is 'challenging the F&DS', but here it's also known as 'discussion'.
It seems you feel that you are being disloyal when you find something different is true, compared to what you were taught, but that's not being disloyal it's being true to Christ. Look at the scriptural instructions telling us not to hand over our thinking abilities to others:
"Do not put YOUR trust in nobles" - Psalm 146:3
"when he entered the house Jesus got ahead of him by saying: “What do you think, Simon?" -Mt 17:25
Jesus asking "What do YOU think?" - Matthew 18:12; 21:28
"keep testing whether you are in the faith " 2Co 13:5
"present your bodies...a sacred service with your power of reason" Ro 12:1
"think so as to have a sound mind" - Romans 12:3
"go on perceiving what the will of Jehovah is" Eph 5:17
"make sure of the more important things" Php 1:10
"make sure of all things" 1Thes 5:21
"we request of YOU not to be quickly shaken from YOUR reason nor to be excited either through an inspired expression or through a verbal message or through a letter as though from us" 2Th 2:1, 2
"God gave us not a spirit of cowardice, but that of power and of love and of soundness of mind." 2Tim 1:7
"I am arousing YOUR clear thinking faculties by way of a reminder" 2Pe 3:1
"test the inspired expressions to see whether they originate with God" 1Jo 4:1
"he has given us intellectual capacity that we may gain the knowledge of the true one" 1Jo 5:20
Not to mention the Beroeans who were commended as noble minded for checking things were so.
You have found youself among people who have done just as the Bible recommends, and although you don't like it, they have found that the JW teachings are not so rock solid that you should put your life on the line for them.
BTW, Welcome! It's good to have you here!
Splash