hi it's katie- i miss you guys

by airwlk149 28 Replies latest jw friends

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  Imbue

  Farkel she is not a troll she is real[as far as I can tell]and she comes into chat. she is a confused young girl. Can't you understand that... LOL

  Elsewhere I disagree with you Katie is not an 'attention whore' as you put it. She is a typical kid that wants her families approval. It just so happens that in the JW family to be that perfect pioneer is the goal for that approval. She is moarning because she will never have that relationship with her familiy. She is confused about her sexuality and maybe other thing so she can never be that person and will never have her families approval.

  She is going through the period where you wish you didn't know the truth and could just die a happy ingnorant dub!

  This is just my assessment.

  Crazy is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
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  Cowboy

  ((((((Katie)))))) Growing up sux.Beats the alternatives,though.

  I'm here if you need to talk.

  Always,
  Cowboy

  The road goes on forever,and the party never ends ~ Robert Earl Keen
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  Simon

  Please don't worry about trolls (esp. in language that may get you deactivated ) as this is what trolls want. If you have concerns then email me and I will look into it. I keep a look out for them anyway.
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  Yadira Angelini

  Katie,

  You have your own answers within you. Dig deeper,

  Love and concern,

  Yadira
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  rodnico

  Katie-

  I was that JW-woman you talked about. I was were the need was great in the Spanish speaking circuit, regular pioneering. I had a nice four door Toyota corolla. I had a very nice leather book bag, and some nice perfectly modest suits that I would wear. I was dating a bethelite, and I traveled to quick builds to really help (I was already dating someone), I was in the kitchen crew. Almost every year I traveled to some country on holiday. When the relationship with the bethelite did not work out, I quickly started to date a ministerial servant school graduate. My best friends were the same as me, one is now a missionary gilead graduate, and the other is at Bethel.

  At night Katie, and in my spare time I would day dream...and wish I had your life. My day dreams were filled with freedom, freedom to be able to decide for myself who I dated male or female spiritual or not. My daydreams were so intricate that I was in a long term relationship with a woman while attending college, and what classes I was taking in my mind.

  On the outside I was a JW success, on the inside I was a failure to myself. Other JW girls who were not part of the circle above were not my friends, they would talk to me only if they had to. People would tell me they knew me, and I had no idea who they were. Girls would say to me, you have no idea what it is really like, you in your perfect little world. They never understood it was all a show. I liked being popular, and was unable to take care of myself. How I envied the other girls I saw who, like you got up and walked away.

  Eventually I was able to walk away. The bubble burst. There is no perfect life Katie. If you live to all of the rules set by this organization or the rules you set for yourself, there will be problems. Life is messy. You know Katie my life is the most "perfect" it has ever been, but I think I attribute this to my age. I still am not married, and still do not have any children.

  Katie you are free to email me anytime, and I will tell you more juicy tidbits about that perfect JW life.

  Nicole
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  SYN

  Your problem is that you want what men want you to want.

  Once you digest that statement, you will understand what I mean, and why it is so wrong for any woman to be a Dub.

  Find yourself more friends outside the BORG, and you'll lead a better life in general.

  "Until they become conscious, they will never rebel. Until they rebel, they will never become conscious." - George Orwell
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  arachnia

  You said it!!!! I wanted to say that my whole life! THANK YOU THANK YOU! I had wondered if I was the only one who had parents who never pushed academics. My mother never asked if I did my homework. She barely glanced at my report cards. Now I'm 28 and entering college, knowing my B.A. is years away. I feel much more prepared now, knowing that I want to study and learn. But in high school it simply wasnt encouraged.

  Your words really encouraged me and let me know I'm not alone!

  Terafera-

  It is very good to know that someone else understands how we feel about what happened (or, didn't happen) to us as kids, isn't it? :)

  And I know that it can be really overwhelming, thinking about how long it's going to get our degrees now, etc., but it's like my (most awesome) mother-in-law reminds me, "What else are you going to spend your time on?" when she is trying to encourage me to not give it up because I'm discouraged. I have incredible in-laws, I love them dearly. :) They are still more of an encouragement to me than my own parents, who are no longer JW, but still can't see the value of an education unless it's something they themselves can understand (which basically means running their own business.) Get yourself some cheerleaders to help keep you encouraged along the way, it helps tremendously. I don't need them constantly cheering, but when I'm down in the dumps it sure helps to know that my husband, his family, and some of my close friends will be there to lift me back up. :)

  Best wishes on furthering your education, you will love it! :)

  Cheers,
  ~arachnia

  Say not, "I have found the truth," but rather, "I have found a truth."
  -Kahlil Gibran
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  terafera

  Thank you for your kind words, they mean alot to me!

  All my best, Tera

  
  
  

  
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  airwlk149

  thank you all for your wonderful replies!
  now if only you were here to help me in person, i would be even better.
  my girl and i are on a "break" (aka- break up)
  i am in the pit, you know sleeping all day and laying around- not eating.
  i tried to go out last night- but i only felt worse.
  so last night i called some j dub friends of mine that are cool.
  they didn't ask me about anything relating to the meetings or my being inactive. we just talked about jobs, and bills and tv. it was nice.
  i miss that. they want me to move up there (they live in oregon and i live in california) but then i would have to give up my freedom, which i enjoy so much now.
  i don't think i will, but there's always this place in the back of my head...
  has anyone gone back after leaving for a long time?
  how were you treated? did you feel better or worse????????????

  love ya bunches,
  Katie