Mike,
Like others here, my advise to you would be to continue to learn, and to try to do it with INDEPENDANT THINKING. That is not a bad thing, as many of us have been taught. You are a young guy, with the worl ahead of you. You should really take time to think out all of your choices and why you want or don't want to do something.
Sites like this are not meant to "discourage" you. They end up doing that, only because you see what others think and are going through. Simon, the person who started this site, has not real dog ina fight against JW's. He just wants people to have an avenue to seek out things for themself. So we have all kinds here.
In other words, don't relate your feelings of lessening faith with this place. Did you get that?