Hello. I want to talk about my story because I need help and advice and most impirtant a lot of comfort.
One year and a half ago I met a wonderful guy. He was really nice and supporyed me during hard moments. I slowly fell in love with him. He has a so awesome personality. He was adorable with me while no one were really nice with me. We were talking everyday through messages. And then he confessed to me 5 months after we met that he is a JW. First I was shaken by this confession because here it's not considered as a good religion. He explained to me a lot of things and I fell even more in love with him. I'm not a JW tho.He slowly fell in love with me too while he wasn't supposed to. We were like a couple sharing everything about our lives no matter the distance, age difference,... He just wanted me to learn about JW, understand him better. That's what I did. But I wasn't telling him I was learning. So we had few arguments but it always ended well. Until last Octobrt. He said he couldn't wait longer to see my efforts and broke up. He didn't let me explain. I'm a student and he isn't. He doesn't understand school is hard. We kept talking. He told me he needed time to think and that we would try again to be together. You know he told me so beautiful things and we planned a lot of things together. I was extremly happy with him ! But few days after we broke up he started a relationship with another girl. I don't know anything about her. I think she's probably a JW too. It totally destroyed me. Just few days after a break up ! What a shame ! I know they hit hard times twice... but it seems he loves her now. So I started being depressed. Really deeply. Crying a lot, not eating and sleeping. We stopped talking for a while. Then we talked again. And I confessed him all the things I learned about JW and all the efforts I did. He felt sad knowing that just now and not earlier. We stopped talking again. I thought he was thinking about being with me again. But not at all. I thought after those cobfessions he would give me another chance to prove him we can be together even if we aren't from the same religion. Now we just spend our time arguing. I can't stop asking him to come back. He ruined my life. I already have other problems and school. But since he's gone I'm depressed and extremly exhausted. I lost a lot of weight. I have big migraines and sometimes I lost consciouness. I spend my time crying. I do everything I can to get better. But I know only him can save me. I know he wants to help me but being with me is a big no. I mean he said he doesn't want to break his friend heart (which I understand) but if it doesn't work with her he will be happy to be with me again. My biggest wish us to see him break up witv her. My friends all said he will come back but I'm starting losing hope. I feel like my life is meaningless to him. And my health and heart too.
What should I do ? What should I tell him ? There is still hope ?
I'm really worried for myself. It destroys me not being with him. I'm not that kind of girl on fact. It's the first time losing someone hurts me so much. I can't get over it. I tried a lot of things to save myself but it doesn't work. I have lot of respect for his faith and it doesn't seem he sees that. As well as he doesn't try to understand my pain. That's terrible he chose to break up with me just because of religion ! I mean we have same interests, see the world same way, like same things... He said I was different and special. The first he met someone like me... I'm really lost... I won't get better without him by my side.
Thanks for your help !