When I was a JW i tried my best to be a good JW. I wasn't perfect but I know I was sincere. I got no help from Jah, the elders or anyone.
So I came to the conclusion that if the JWs were right and God wanted to kill me because I wasn't one of them then I didn't want any part of him anyway.
If the JWs are the one true religion then god is crazy and you are better off dead than living forever with that dysfunctional JW family.
That is what comforts me when I see some prediction of theirs that seems to have some validity.
Honestly I feel a stronger spiritual presence in my life after leaving the JWs and I'm not even a believer in god or at least the bible.
I am open to god leading me back to him but it will need to be a very spiritual experience.