Yes, Justin, I agree with you regarding the Watchtower. We chose to walk away after years in the Organization, and years of watching the Watchtower slowly try to suck the life out of our family. We came to a point, at least I did initially, where it felt if I stayed they would surely kill me. They were surely killing my husband. After walking away, yes, it truly was difficult, as I took much pressure from close friends and even you yourself, my son. But I felt those feelings you express now. I needed to live my life and enjoy my family, and also continue to be there to support those broken in spirit by the WAtchtower. At my age I feel the years I have ahead of me I can happily say I and my huband have broken the cycle of sexual abuse that persisted because of Clement Pandelo and his family of elders and other relatives who hid and covered for him. We broke the cycle and came forward to tell what he has done and what the Watchtowr did to protect him. We broke the cycle of sexual and spiritual abuse in our family. In doing that I have found joy in seeing my children make that break in the cycle continue into the lives of their future children. Although our family has endured much pain, we have also grown in inner strength. I have also gained wonderful new friendships in my community and through the newly discovered interests we now enjoy in our lives. I also feel that along with the delights of discovering new interests outside the Watchtower, new strengths, and abilities, we have also derived deep satisfaction in being in the position to help countless victims have the courage to do what they feared doing all the years of abuse. Good things can always grow out of tragedy, and exposing the scourge of sexual abuse in the Organization that blatantly told us "you are a unique case and we are learning so much about the issue of child abuse." Little did we know they had been hiding it for decades before. If our experience can help a little bit that I can say our life made a differnce. My husband and I made some kind of a difference by speaking out and fighting for what was right. And that is all anyone can do. Be there for our fellow man, for greater love has no man than to give there life in behalf of others. Watchtower may think they can "kill" our family, but only in their own twisted belief. They can never kill our spirit, and the joy we recieve helping those who are broken. I look forward also to many years of sharing new joys with my family without Watchtower legalistic rules and oppression.
