Outrage, disgust and contempt are some of the feelings I have upon reading about this latest assault against LGBT people by the WTS at this IC. Yet there was a time that I would have been in total agreement with these sentiments--and I'm a gay man. For many years I was convinced that the WTS was God's organization and so its take on any subject was in line with divine standards. That meant for years I suffered the self-loathing and low self-esteem many LGBT people have. I didn't flush that out of my life until I made the decision to leave the Witnesses for good and all some years ago.
As for the man who claims to be free of his former sexual attractions, he's lying to himself and to his audience. He may have convinced himself and others that he is no longer gay. He may even marry a woman as further proof that he will never desire sexual contact with another man again. But as I pointed out to my judicial committee, all such "experiences" are nothing more than fairy-tales, and they have all the reality those stories do. That doesn't mean they have no effect on others. I wonder how many gay and lesbian youths were listening to this talk and were filled with false hope. How many older adults came away from this session thinking that their sexuality was nothing more than a bad habit that could be kicked just like smoking? On the other hand, how many others will find their despair grow and come to believe that since God has not answered their prayers for a cure, they must be worthless and that suicide is the only solution left?
I have long maintained that the WTS has the blood of many LGBT people on its hands. I told my judicial committee that suicide is the third-leading cause of death among young American men aged fifteen to twenty-four. How many of them were gay cannot be known, but we can be sure they make up a large segment of these victims. I asked the committee how many of these were young male Witnesses. They gave me no answer, but the looks of dread on their faces said it all. Despite this grim reality, the WTS has chosen to continue to spread its malicious and uniformed propaganda about this very sensitive and serious topic.
Since leabing the Witnesses, I haven't entertained any notion of returning. Threads like this one have only strengthened that resolve because I know that would be the equivalent of an emotional and spiritual death sentence. At the same time, I have enormous empathy for those still trapped, particularly gays and lesbians who only see the darkness deepening the longer they remain associated with this execrable cult. I hope they will find the will and courage to get out and lead the lives they were meant to lead and, if that is their choice, with a loving partner who will give them unconditionaland unqualified support. I was fortunate enough to have found such a man and am all the better off for it.
Quendi