Appreciate the comments everyone. It truly is unbelievable when I think of the fill-in circuit overseer sitting there at my jc and accusing me of saying something to him and his wife(she wasn't there) and when I finally stood up to him and said that he was a liar, then and only then did he chuckle and say I was telling the truth and that I really didn't say that to them. And that at the very end of my jc the elders finally admit that society doesn't have all the answers and that our magazines are "magazines of half truths".
They had talked all my accusers, which were all young kiids, in to saying things they couldn't remember. They said they were all under the assumption that I gave them a feeling of not wanting to pioneer six years ago. It was all poorly rehearsed.
One question that will always be in the back of head until I die will be why were we so hated. We minded our own business yet so many times the comments were you have a nice property. This is just the perfect place for parties. We never budged and just bit our tongues or everytime there was a congregation get together, we were always asked to supply the entire hall with meat. Um, no we won't be around that weekend but we would really love to do it and then walk away. I figured bethel got enough out of us and no more.
I realize we all have to move on yet the more voices that are out there for lurkers or anyone thinking of joining, then speak out! I wish I would have found out about this cult before I had joined. Peoples experiences with this cult touch lives and never go away wheather you are a lurker or a victim.