Sentinel: I'm so sorry about that stuff happening to you. It's horrid, and should be banned.
Surviving the Hearing to DF Me.
by Sentinel 25 Replies latest jw experiences
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Sentinel
sOOner,
Welcome my sweet sister! I see you did make it on here. Just got done reading your e-mails from earlier in the afternoon, and will look for other posts from you.
As you can see from reading the posts, there are many dear people, so much like us--the way we used to be--and also, the way we are now. FREE!!!
Better "sOOner" than later, huh?
Love,
Sis-K
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patio34
Hi Sentinel,
Reading your account made me appalled. Can't those guys afford porn? Why do they have to prey on young sisters? Thanks for adding another "experience" to the pile of garbage these men do in their secret kangaroo courts.
GiantJason, you said:
I will never forget the day they came to our house to df her. They had been hunting her for awhile. We would see them waiting for us at our house and she would freak out and make me leave. In my younger days I wa a bit of a Psycho. I just wanted to walk up to them and beat them(I now know that would have been wrong... >=) ). ANyhow one morning I woke up and heard my wife crying and I heard men in my house, I was a bit hungover from the night before so I was not in the greatest of moods. At the time I had long hair almost to my butt, a very long goatee(it was a grunge thing gimme a break) Many times I was told I loked like the devil himself. I listened for a second and figured out what was going on. My wife was sobbing and these bastards were reading her the riot act and showing know sympathy whatsoever. I lit up a ciggarette walked out with no shirt and said "What the F*ck is going on here, and who the f*ck are these mother f'rs!!" I watched both guys about piss themselves. My wife choked out the words "they are disfellowshipping me". I looked at tehm and asked them "I hope you are finshes because you have 2 seconds to get the f*ck out of my house you peice of sh*t". They quickly grabbed their things and left. We knew it was coming but it still pissed me off that they would come to my house and pull that. How would they feel if I walked into a meeting packed full of people and told them all how stupid they are?? Sorry you had to go through that Sentinel. And I was a very young rebellious boy back then, I now handle things differently, I still thinks it's funny though.
LOL, Jason! I think it's verrrry funny and I wish it were on video. I've often thought a lot of JW men are pretty sissified and would never stand up to anyone who's threatening. And you certainly seemed to fill the bill! Cheers for you!!!
Pat
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Sentinel
The past hurt us. But we cannot change the past. My posts are not to upset anyone, but to show that you aren't alone. These things happened to us, they changed our lives. What we need to do now is move beyond our pain and hurt "through" the expressions we read and contribute to here.
Today I was reflecting on how being a borg affected me. It affected my education and choice of subjects in school. It stiffled any further college education, which I had qualified for. It made me a frightened, lonely, withdrawn young woman, afraid to make a decision or choice because I felt like it wouldn't be the right one. It affected the negative view I took of everything in the world. It took years of my life to regain the balanced perspective that I needed. I lived for years feeling lost as a human being. But, I'm not lost anymore.
The way I look at it, is that this is the journey I was meant to take. It not only opened my eyes to the borg, but to other areas of the world and society, where we have been and continue to be deceived. So, in many, many ways, I'm exactly where I'm at because I was meant to experience what I experienced. I have learned so many things, and I have healed myself through sheer determination.
Don't let anger sit on your shoulder like a monkey. Shoot that monkey, and prove them all wrong. I'm not a "pollyanna", but I know what that anger can do to you. You are worth far too much as a fellow being of the universe to allow that to happen.
And, you know what? Most of those elders back in my congregation are either already dead, or the rest will die before long of old age. They are still waiting for Armegeddon to destroy all of "us". They don't believe we can be happy. They don't know what happiness is.
Karen/Sentinel
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patio34
Hi Karen,
Your attitude is "A-1"! I'm sure that you'll make much progress by being forward-looking.
One thing too all the die-hard JWs have pretty much wasted their entire life looking for a dream to come true. It's as the Bible says, "If in this life only we have hoped, we are most to be pitied of all men." It seems to me that this applies especially to the elders.
All the best,
Pat
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Sentinel
Patio34,
There was just no way that I would every allow any of them to set foot inside my house once I'd made my decision to permanent cut all ties.
That's why, when I finally answered the door to those four elders, I shut the door behind me--leaving my poor husband frantic behind the curtains--, and escorted them to the end of our long front porch.
Having made my decision, I knew there was absolutely nothing in the world they could do or say to sway me in the least. I didn't cry or break down, and perhaps that's because they handled it fairly well. They didn't try to quote scripture to me or pray for me. It was different than I'd expected. I hadn't done anything to be df'd for, but even if they'd come to do that, I was feeling very strong that day.
To invite them into my home, would be like a form of "submission", and I couldn't do it. I didn't even have to think about it. They were out of my life, out of my heart, and lucky to be on my porch.
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I was so sad to hear about GiantJason's wife dealing with being df'd RIGHT IN HER OWN LIVING ROOM. What a horrible experience that must have been.
Thank goodness we are moving towards true light and understanding.
Karen/Sentinel