Bob,
I have always seen it as quite curious that you can pick and choose scriptures to explain away anything as you see fit in relation to immediate circumstances that continue to erupt in your cult.
If there is a little good news you spout something like "you will know god's people by their love for one another." When there is deception and outright corruption you spout "the love of the greater number will cool off." It seems to be quite handy to be able to pick and choose at random and out of context any scripture that you can apply a specific meaning to that will explain any given situation.
I see that once again you still hold to the delusion that no matter how corrupt, unfair, elusive, or out and out deceptive your cult leaders prove themselves to be you not only have an out for the group as a whole but more specify you find an out for yourself.
Your behavior reminds me of a classic case of deep psychological denial at it best. You are never wrong, you can never make a mistake and if you see that you might have you will never admit it. You continue to predict the end is near year after year and when October rolls by you disappear for a little while and much like your cult you deny any such statements or claim that we as your enemies simply misunderstood you and it is our fault for doing so. Think about this Bob, you are much smarter than you portray here in the threads of this forum and "you know" it! The problem is, you refuse to admit it to yourself.
Bob, I know you have a good heart but that seems to be the key ingredient that your cult leaders do not posses. To me, any true and "only" group of people who would represent god and his kingdom here on earth must not only maintain a true interpretation of a book that you consider sacred and inspired but also do it with true love for their fellow believer. I have never seen this in your religion. I actually saw quite the opposite when I made my two week counseling trip back to Bethel. The corruption, secrecy, distrust for one another as well as the constant fear of speaking your mind was what I saw. It is not what I wanted to see but it was the truth that I could not help but see and eventually admit to myself. After being a JW my whole life and believing what they taught that one trip to the Mecca of the JW religion showed me who they really were. It took a lot for me to admit it, it took being honest with myself for possibly the first time in my life. My love for what is right did not cool off, it simply woke up.
I have only one suggestion for you. Try looking into your heart and not your bible or the JW publications for a few answers. Then come back and tell us the truth about what you see and feel within yourself. Your closer than you think Bob.
Take care,
Dave