Bad Day

by Sirona 29 Replies latest jw experiences

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  Sirona

  Hi

  I'm posting here because I can't find any other forum to post to about this....plus you all know me and you are a great group of people.

  I'm having a really bad day today. All of a sudden it seems to have "hit" me that I had cancer. I've been all clear for about 3 months, but all the while I've been terrified of it returning.

  My glands swelled up a few weeks ago and I had the trauma of seeing the specialist to find out if the cancer had moved to my glands in my neck. It turns out that they think its an infected wisdom tooth. Now they want me back in for that removed - general anaesthetic, plus its on a nerve and they said I may have numbness on my face. I refused to have it done. I don't want to see a hospital again so soon. I'm fed up. My arm is still numb from the previous operation...it seems the right side of my body does not wish to cooperate with me nowadays!!!

  I've had an ear infection because of the infected tooth, had antibiotics...but the problem with my ears isn't gone.

  Now I'm spending way too much time worrying about my health. E.g. if I had cancer, then I could have something else serious. That doesn't make any logical sense, I suppose. People who have never been seriously ill don't think it will ever happen to them, but when you've been told you have cancer, you suddenly realise how fragile we really are. It becomes a possibility that you could be seriously ill and die before you are 30.

  Anyway, does anyone know of any cancer support links - perhaps to forums? Maybe its normal to feel this way? My doctor said I may feel down even when I get the all clear.

  People are joking about me "not being right". Sometimes I think its humourous too....but not today!

  Sirona

  PS. Funnily enough, everything else in my life is going really well. My house move is coming up soon (yeah!). Perhaps this is just a "bad day"
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  Matty

  ((((((((((Sirona))))))))))

  We luv ya. Please keep us up to date with how you are, and don't hold back - vent vent vent - we need to know!
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  SpiceItUp

  ((((((((((((((((Sirona)))))))))))))))

  Having our good days and having our bad days will never end. It just look like you are having a worse day than normal. Hang in there.
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  detective

  It sounds very frightening. I do not know of any online cancer survivors support groups but I'm sure there are many out there. I hope you are okay. Hang in there!
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  WildTurkey

  I'm sorry Sirona, you might try here, http://www.cancersurvivor.com/
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  Dia

  Try watercure2.com It's helped me, not with cancer but with another chronic disease. They're GREAT people.
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  outoftheorg

  Hello Sirona.

  Sorry to hear you are having a bad day. Ask your local hospital if there are support groups in your area. Usually here in the US this is so. If you can find one that is monitored by a counselor it should be of help to you. Some times the more personal aspects of being with people in the same situation you are in helps a lot.

  If you put off the tooth extraction will it be worse when you finally do have it pulled?

  Having an illness to deal with sure is trying. Feel free to use this post to your advantage in venting and if you have questions let us know. We may not have the answers but with the many seemingly educated persons on this post It seems possible that someone would have the answer.

  Keeping busy with something I like to do helps me with the emotional loads and turmoil. But I do not have any physical problems to deal with like you do.

  Hang in there and handle each day one at a time. Wish you the best and will be thinking about you.
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  Sirona

  Thanks everyone!

  Wildturkey - I've registered there, thanks.

  Dia - I'm not sure where to go on that site there are so many links. Plus, it seems a little unusual since they are advocating drinking water with salt to cure cancer! ??

  Sirona
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  Cassiline

  (((((((((((((((((( Sirona ))))))))))))))))

  Know you are in my thoughts depression and anxiety are a normal aftermath of surviving cancer. You are not alone.

  Hugs sent your way

  C

  http://www.cancerlinksusa.com/support/

  http://www.oncochat.org/

  There may be days
  when you get up in the morning
  and things aren't the way
  you had hoped they would be.

  That's when you have to
  tell yourself that things will get better.
  There are times when people
  disappoint you and let you down,

  but those are the times
  when you must remind yourself
  to trust your own judgments and opinions,
  to keep your life focused on believing in yourself

  and all that you are capable of.
  There will be challenges to face
  and changes to make in your life,
  and it is up to you to accept them.

  Constantly keep yourself headed
  in the right direction for you.
  It may not be easy at times,
  but in those times of struggle

  you will find a stronger sense of who you are,
  So when the days come that are filled
  with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
  remember to believe in yourself

  and all you want your life to be,
  because the challenges and changes
  will only help you to find the goals
  that you know are meant to come true for you.

  unknown
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  Sirona

  outoftheorg:

  Thanks for the kind words.

  I should really get the tooth done asap...but I was putting it off until at least the end of the year. Perhaps I will be forced to do it sooner if the pain continues.

  Cassiline - thats lovely, thanks. Thanks for the hugs too. I will check the links,

  Sirona