Dear Sirona,
(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
I have never had cancer, so I don't really know how you are feeling. Cancer can be deadly, so it is a much different experience than some of the other health issues I contend with. I am glad that you are free of it right now, but I can only imagine your daily fears and concerns.
Cancer is something I do think about. Both my paternal grandparents died of cancer, as did my maternal grandfather-he had bone cancer. My uncle died of colon cancer in his mid 70's, and his wife had one breast removed about five years ago. Another great aunt died of breast cancer. So it is in my family, and it seems to strike everyone later in life, in their late 60's and 70's. I try to take good care of myself and not worry about it. There are some things we just have no control over. We can only live our life day to day, one day at a time.
My mother's sister had a breast taken about ten years ago. She was in her mis 60's. She is still cancer free now! My sister-in-law (just 44 and newly married) had a double mastectomy just about 15 days ago. Both of these people NEVER had a mammagram. UNBELIEVABLE.
My mother never had a mammagram until her sister faced cancer. She had not even seen a GYN until two years ago! She finally got a pap smear. UNBELIEVABLE. She tries to get BOTH DONE every two years now at the least. Two days ago, she informed me that the doctor just removed the sores on her face that wouldn't heal. Cancer. Her brother has major skin cancer and is always being operated on. She has also been diagnosed with Osteoperosis. We feel this developed because as a faithful borg, she refused blood during an operation, and nearly died. This was five years ago. The nutrients to survive are drawn from wherever possible. Her's came from her bone. Now she will have to deal with that at age 78 (tomorrow's her BD). Thank you JW's!
I am very aware that cancer is very close to me. How ironic that Cancer is also my birth sign. Hummm........I always get my yearly pap smear and mammagram done. But, that only began yearly when I got out of my first marital situation. There was no money then. Hard times. Things got better.
You are enduring a terrible physical and emotional illness. You need support in both areas. I saw some interesting sites come up on here as a result of your post, so I hope you will find one that gives you what you need. My heart goes out to you Sirona. None of us knows what the new day will bring.
But, you are alive, and your cancer is gone. Trust your doctor and try to move ahead with your life in positive ways. If you were near me, I would have you over for a hot cup of tea and we could talk and be friends. Well, that isn't posible, so the next best thing is just my ((((HUGS)))) on here and supportive reply. It isn't much, but it's all I have hon.
You have shared your thoughts on here many places and I have enjoyed your posts. I had no idea up to now, what you were going through.
Take care of yourself! You are loved!
Karen/Sentinel