I awoke from sleep about a half hour ago from a dream in which I returned to the Witnesses. I had become so upset from losing my family and friends that I decided to return and seek reinstatement even though secretly in my heart I did not believe (I was trying to fool the elders).
I awoke from the dream with illusions of actually following through with this idea. It took me about 5 minutes to arrive at reality. I could not do this because I would have to return to Field Service, which would put me in a position of marketing the hideous Watchtower organization. Also, doing this would simply prove the disgusting practice of shunning actually works. It reminds me of this sick quote from the August 2002 Kingdom Ministry:
After hearing a talk at a circuit assembly, a brother and his fleshly sister realized that they needed to make adjustments in the way they treated their mother, who lived elsewhere and who had been disfellowshipped for six years. Immediately after the assembly, the man called his mother, and after assuring her of their love, he explained that they could no longer talk to her unless there were important family matters requiring contact. Shortly thereafter, his mother began attending meetings and was eventually reinstated. Also, her unbelieving husband began studying and in time was baptized. -KM 08/02
Reading this made me want to puke. How sincere do you think this mother really was about going back? Plus now her husband also got dragged in. What a warped and sick thing to publish (even for the Watchtower Society).
-professor