I had a few strange dreams where i was with my JW friends, but they wouldn't really acknowledge me or talk to me, we were at an amusement park too. It was very upsetting, I woke up all pissed offf too.
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Dream of Going Back
by professor 24 Replies latest jw friends
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Big Tex
No, I've never had a dream in which I returned. But sometimes I get to feeling how weird it is for me to think and talk and believe about the Witnesses the way I do now. I don't regret leaving and in fact I'm relieved it's over. I never thought I would leave and yet now that I'm out I can't ever imagine going back. I guess that means I have a limited imagination.
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SPAZnik
I've never dreamed
or nightmared, as the case may be,
of returning.
Altho i too have occasionally dreamed
that i was at a meeting or assembly
sitting in the back row
with no one speaking to me.
Strange that i've dreamt this
cuz I've never sat in the back row
being shunned.
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Sentinel
Hi Jack,
Nice post reply.
I've had those "nightmares" too. They seem so real. I'm so glad when I wake up and find I dreamed all of it....but, in a way, I did get to "associate" with friends and family through the dreams, so that was kind of nice.
What really got me to leave entirely in the first place, was that I felt god could read my heart. And, my heart had not been a JW for a very long while. So, I thought I was being a hypocrite and needed to make a stand. I was living a lie.
At the time, of course, I still was feeling the "control" of them, and the guilt for being an "evil apostate" was too much. Making a decision was the only thing I could do. I was trying to be outwarding honest with my inward heart. It felt really good to be true to my own feelings, but it still took me some twenty years more to resolve all of the crap.
Sentinel/Karen
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songmistress
**Tammy wrote: I'm at the KH or circus assembly or d'strict convention and at first I am going through the motions**
OK hon, is that a freudian slip or what!!! Circus of the damned is more like it. LOL
Blessings
Cheryl