OK I have decided I do not want to have children.................well,,,,,,, I am about 15 yrs and 3 kids too late for that statement. I had my first child when I was 20 , thinking the New World would be here before he started walking, then before he went to school. He will be driving in a few months and thank goodness I am not still waiting for the New World. I didnt give deciding to have my children alot of thought. I did just want them. It is the most rewarding thing I have ever done, and at the same time the most scarey. I wonder if what I know now, would I still decide to have children? I mean the things you as a parent have to watch them go thru, the sickness, the confusion, worrring if someone is going to molest them,,, is a hard job. Sometimes you feel helpless, not being able to always make things better for them in this world we live in. It can be heartbreaking . I was watching my youngest son who is 8 , listening to a song he loves off of the computer and drawing on the computer too. He was listening to a song that was a tribute to the 9-11 tragedy , "everybody hurts'.....REM,,,, and it is mixed with statements made about it. He is sitting there , drawing on the computer , the twin towers, going up in smoke and fire , and blood. How do you protect your kids from these things?? You can't ,,, and it scares me , now that I am older ,of what the future holds for our kids,,,,,the whole world in general really. When you have kids it really changes you, you would sacrifice everything for them, and from that point on, you will always be afraid of them suffering somehow.
