I was born & raised a JW but I never really believed in God. Even when I was giving public talks from the platform I knew in my heart of hearts that I didn't believe in god. I was just going thru the motions. I was locked into a system of religious belief that I couldn't get out of.
I have to agree with Mackin, in that I never believed in God, even as a little child. I knew what would happen to me if I did something against the rules, so I went with the motions, and I tried to do what was wanted.
With the hypocricy I saw around me everyday, and extremely difficult life at home I experienced, there was no way I could put faith in anything but myself. To this day I have a tough time believing people, as I was so used to being lied to for so many years.
I do think it is my lack of believe in this "God" they spoke about is what made it easier for me to slip away as soon as I was old enough to get out of the house. Well, that and other experiences some of you may have read about on here.
I still don't believe in any type of a god, and I don't participate in any form of religion, either. I disagree with how many believe a god or evil being, or whatnot are responsible for the good or bad things in this world. I enjoy taking full credit for when something amazing happens in my life, but I am always aware I have made some not-so-great choices and I hold the weight and consequences of them.
Edited by - saltiest on 11 January 2003 21:46:22
Edited by - saltiest on 11 January 2003 21:47:2