i never looked behind the curtain--i just lost all interest.
i had been brought up in it from about 10--dragged to meetings by recently converted mom. Dad followed her--and when i was 14 he told me he was getting baptised, I heard several other brats in the cong were getting dipped too...so i did too to be part of the silly show. Typical teenage years followed--married to a born in spoiled child when i turned 20 Pioneered and became a servant.
Wife was expecting our first (of 3 ) when i was 23----then it hit me--the no blood thing. No way ! I realised i had no interest in god or religion--and i was out.
Spoiled child wife "persuaded" me to attend sunday meetings occasionally--which i did in return for marital favours. But that all ended with a simple my fault divorce, and i was finally free completely.
I lost contact with my kids during the 80s, untill in 2010 i learned my son had been d/f. I discovered a UK ex jw website and asked on there if anyone knew of him--and 2 members did. Long story short, this got me interested in this hitherto unknown "world" of ex jws
But i still have no interest in god, bible . any religion. It all belongs in the stone age.