I'm sure by now you've realized that "Christian Love" and "Friendship" in JWLand is pile of hog spit, and that your witness "friends" were never true friends at all. That means you have no friends right now. This is good news, because that's as bad as it gets and it can only get better from here on.
It is almost certain that if you attend a University (and especially if you join a sorority) you will make lifelong and true friends. If you do volunteer work, you can meet some really wonderful people. People that care about people do volunteer work, and the satisfaction it brings to help others without asking for anything in return is the best kind of satisfaction there can be.
Good luck on your journey. Yes, such a thing as "luck" does exist but you can also create some of by yourself.
Farkel