dislike: I am unloveable.
Nilfun
No you're not!!! You are a fantastic person with a helluva lot to offer. I just wish you could see yourself as others, like me, see you. What I've always liked about you is how quick you are. I can reference some obtuse point, and you will always be the one who catches it.
What I will always be grateful to you for is when I posted my first short story on this board and it was (I thought) received negatively. There was a couple of people who said they didn't get it. YOU were the one who rode to the rescue. I can't tell you how much that helped me.
You sound like you're in a great deal of pain. I'm so sorry.
Incidently you're wrong. I love you. You're a sweetie.