I've thought about that on occasion, but in my heart - even when I was a JW - I knew Armaggedon was never coming. Sometimes I'd hope for it, but I knew it was just some bizarre fantasy. Still, I preached and studied and tried to believe. It's a blessing to not have this constant battle inside myself of knowing something is wrong and yet trying to convince yourself that what you've been taught is right despite all evidence to the contrary. Actually, that reminds me of a book I'm reading on abusive parents. It says that abused children are taught to distrust their senses. Things should turn out one way by every logical conclusion, and yet time and again they're taught that what they can see and feel are wrong. It's devestating to the child and leaves them severely lacking in confidence. I think the society is the same - an abusive parent.