Echoing all the supportive comments - get help, counseling, and learn the truth about 'The Truth' (hint - it's a lie!). There is nothing wrong with being gay, NOTHING. It is nature.
As for "Jehovah", he has a lot of crimes to answer for, including torturing his faithful servant Job, just to settle a bet with Satan! Forget about him, and do some research. : )
Also, are you having safe sex? PLEASE do not expose your spouse to STDs. That would be so very wrong. If you are 'on the down-low' and not using condoms, your wife is at risk, too. ** edit - I see you are now separated, but still, get tested.