Ever get the feeling your just not "normal"? (page 2)

avishai

Yes, thank god! Man, I hear ya, I was always the "brain" in school, we moved all the time, always the new kid, so this made me an outcast both in "normal" & dub circles. I revel in it now, thank god I'm not "normal" Jiddu Krishnamurti once said "It's not a sign of health to be well adjusted in such a profoundly sick society. I feel if I was "average" or "normal, i would still be a dub, it takes guts & independent thinking to tell everyone you've ever known to f**k off, KNOWING they will shun you. Think about that. I would rather be a freak, going to crazy festivals, reading stuff I'm "not suppsed to" than be a "normal" mindless drone any day.

shamus

Yes. Always.

Esp. at assemblies, meetings, etc. I hated them. I just couldn't go sometimes, because the pressure was far far too much! Of course, the "loving" "brotherhood" could never understand this.... I was just "weak" ... do more... ... shut up... go out in service more...

I know EXACLY what you mean!

Nowadaze, my self-esteem is going , and things are improving. Give it time! You'll find yourself and find out that you are worth more as a unique human being on this planet, with something to give!

Trust me.

PM me anytime if you want to chat. I know exacly what you are going through!

logansrun

Avishai,

Fantstic quote by Krishnamurti. I agree wholeheartedly. In fact, in some weird, sick way I appreciate being raised a dub since it raised a certain awareness. Funny, subtle thing.

Shamus,

Ah, but I'm fine in formal settings like meetings, school, etc. It's the "I'm just going to hang out and watch MTV with my pals" thing I have problems with.

I know, I'm doomed.

Bradley

jgnat

My son was lonely in High School. He described wandering the halls, seeing the happy clusters of kids, and feeling painfully ALONE. I advised him to go looking for the geeks. And he did, happily. Hung out with Magic Card nuts for the rest of his school career. OK, so maybe you won't have glamorous chickie babies hanging off your arm, and the jocks are not lining up for you to do their homework. Go for quality, not quantity. Seek out others like yourself. Some of them can even do eye-contact when they talk.

xjw_b12

Bradley. If you can engage in literal social interaction, the way you can engage on this forum, I don't think you have any problem at all.

I find it hard to believe the Bradley I read here, could be a wallflower elsewhere!

Maverick

You may have something there Runner! I go to the local Mensa meeting and the only thing we all have in common is that we don't seem to fit anywhere! Many of the membership have no social skills. My ex used to hammer me about being Mr Spock and having no emotions and no social graces. I worked for twenty years just not to be a total geek!

I never got that impression about you though. Not that you are not smart, you have my total respect in that area, but based on your comments and accounting for your youth, I see you as a very put together kind of guy! Don't make too much of your not fitting in. You may be too far ahead of the rest of the group, and intimidate them. They may wish they were more like you! You'll be fine! Maverick

tinkerbell82

i've always felt like a total misfit, especially in those relaxed social settings. i get freaked out and generally just sit there the whole time wondering "why am i even here?". it's very uncomfortable.

it reminds me of something thoreau said...

In what concerns you much, do not think that you have companions: know that you are alone in the world.

fwiw, at least we all love you! :)

Adam

I asked my bitch of a step mom (but my only "spiritual head" unfortunatly) one time if maybe the reason so many more women were "in the truth" than men was because the way that men think is that they use a lot more logic and women use more emotion and don't need as much concrete proof and reason as most men do. Boy did she get pissed.

tinkerbell82

are ther really more women? hm, yet all of the people in positions of power are men....huh, wonder what happened to their logic. what does that have to do with feeling like a misfit, btw? ;)

AnnOMaly

All my life.

I was different from the kids at the Hall. I was different from the kids at school. I'm still different from both the ppl at the Hall and 'worldly' ppl.

That's me. It'll continue to be me. I've grown to be happy with being different, not 'normal'. You will too, I'm sure.

Ever get the feeling your just not "normal"?

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