Dear Scholar,
I promise you I was sincere in my enquiries! The brothers at Bethel here in Sweden were thankful to me cause my regularily writings helped them in their translation work (english to swedish) in a temporary period of unqualified translators. You might contact Sweden Bethel to check this my statement.
I also called Bethel brothers when I wrote my disassociation letter. They just thought I was psychical sick and ordained me to take medicine. But I wasn't sick! Furthermore, they couldn't believe my decision to leave the congregation and said: "We know that you love The Truth!" In that very second we laughed together. But I stood firm. Basically I was very disappointed and felt much sorrow to their unchristian behaviour in ignoring my questions (not my translation work they really appreciated) regarding articles in The Watchtower.
Don't think for a second I have abandoned my holy faith in and my firmly dedication to JEHOVAH GOD! But I can't stand with brothers who don't care of my spiritually needs. (See Matthew 5:3 18:6)
Love