Aw. You guys are all so sweet. *fuzzies*
I tried to post in here last night, but I got an error page and I couldn't retrieve my post. :p I was really frustrated 'cause I really liked my post! Oh welll...I'll try to re-communicate its gist.
LOL @ Dr. Wat... what I'm wanting to know is if you said the same thing you said before. Now that would *really* be funny. Heehee.
((((Sassy)))) That is so sad. I was just thinking this morning that now that we have different views on death/afterlife, it's like we have to re-grieve the losses we suffered while we were still Witnesses. My grampa died exactly two years ago to the month (he wasn't a Witness), and while before I had consoled myself with seeing him again, now I don't believe that and have to face the feelings accordingly. ((((hugs)))) to you for the loss of your friend...old wounds become renewed.
((((Odrade)))) You sweetie! :-) Here's to seeing you again soon. *clink*
With losing my friends and family, I've kind of gone through a three part grieving process so far. For one thing, I'm really lucky to still have the association of my parents. They're not happy, and that's painful, but at least they'll still talk to me and have us over and go out with us from time to time...and they avoid bringing religion into the conversation and try to act upbeat and happy when around us. I know they're going through a lot of pain and they really love and care for us, because they sincerely believe we're going to die. Wah, they deserve to be happy, they deserve so much more, but I can't give that to them. Uh, anyway, back to the three part grieving process...at first, I was in total agony; the timing was horrible, I felt like staying in bed all the time, and all of the emotional pain really put a kink in our honeymoon (and not the fun kind of kink!). After a while, I kind of forced myself to refocus on other things and put the feelings on a back burner. After a time, they kind of came out naturally, and I had a period of grief where I was able to cry out my feelings and kind of move on.
Besides what I've gone through with my parents, the hardest thing for me has been losing my former best friend. She was an absolutely amazingly beautiful person, and there's no way I'll ever be able to fill the empty space she created when she left. She still talks to me if we see each other around, and the emotional connection is still there. We ran into each other a couple of months ago at the pool hall...we were both hugging and crying. It's so sad because she misses me as much as I miss her, but she stays away from me because of what other people would think of her. I hope someday we can regain that closeness.
